Flu, Cough...huwaaaaa

Its been 2 days since i had the flu attack..its so bad until i cant feel my nose already, been holding on daily dose of Redoxon Vitamin C which helps in converting the running nose to blocked nose. However, i keep sneezing and to top it of the cough that comes with it is just like cake with cream..can't be separated i guess.

This has makes me feel drowsy and my eyes feel sleepy, not as in sleepy to bed kinda thing..but its somehow been affected my the flu! huwaaaaa..now i'm thinking flu on its own could actually cause drowsiness or lack of cognitive focus i guess (poyoo gila ayat aku..ape cognitive tu? hahhahaha).

Another after effect of the sneezing is, i've grown super lazy to wash my hair! (ade kena mengena ke? ye saya rasa ade kena mengena). So i went to hair saloon near my place yesterday evening around 7pm..tengok2 tutup! what the heck...bila time aku malas and nak cuci rambut time tu laa dia nak tutup, kalau tak menari2 bukak 24 jam! hampeh..and balik la saya dengan kemalasan yang makin menebal untuk cuci rambut.

I wanna wash my hair at the saloon gak! i dont care..so i'm going soon..well, this is the upside of flu and cough..so i have all the reason to go for a hair wash at the saloon, without feeling guilty about it since i could always wash my hair at home during non flu season..wakakakaka.

Maybe i could have a hair cut too...mmmmm

kebangangan yang amat menyeksakan...grrrr

Last two weeks i went to Ambank sentul branch to submit c.card application for my client, so i came with all the necessary documents which is I.C copy and salary slip. As i approach the counter to submit this application on behalf of my client...and pass the form to the counter lady, she gave me such a confused look and said " i'm sorry the person that's applying for the credit card himself have to submit the form here"..and i was like "what?? no..i always pass it for all my clients before..and there's no issue about passing the forms" and she replied "did u always pass it to the agents previously?" and i said "yes". Then she said " Agents is different, here we only accept the person itself come to pass their application". (haishhh..minah ni budak baru ke ape? if baru buat pe la letak kt front desk tu?)

Then i asked again " Are you very sure about it? can u check about it? "...and then only she ask her superior and he said its not a problem at all. (ok, kebodohan number satu dh terserlah, sila ambil perhatian ye semua).

Then as she looked at the form konon2 terror..nak cover kebodohan dia tadi, she took the form with the I.C copy only and passed me back the salary slip, and said " we don't need the salary slip", and i asked back "since when? all this while i've been attaching it with the payslip and its compulsory". Dengan gaya poyo and terror dia balas "not anymore". I said " well, if that's the case..just please submit the form for me then, thanks"

and i walked off.

1 week later, the c.card application was declined!..i was like..whhhhhhaattttt??? dengan kepanasan dan masih perlu melakonkan watak cool dengan my client. His reaction was..whhhhaaattt??....and i asked him if he wouldn't mind me submitting another application. Lukcy he said.."yea, it wouldn't be a problem".

Second time submitting, lesson learnt from a week earlier..i went straight to Ambank credit card centre at Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. Enough said dealing with stupid people whom have the guts to put up a pretty face, brainless!. I went straight in..and pass the document, note that since the "smart lady" from Ambank previuosly said that i don't need to pass the payslip, this time around i brought only the I.C copy and existing c.card copy of my client.

Then the lady check all the forms and attached documents, and said " oh, sekarang ni kita dah taknak the existing c.card copy, ade bawak payslip dia?"..(whhaaattt?..aiyooo) then i said "actually aritu saya dh submit application c.card for client saya ni kak, dekat ambank sentul..but then dia ckp skrg dah tak pakai payslip for c.card application, mana satu ni kak?". She replied "eh mana ade, skrg ni new BNM regulation mmg kena pakai payslip dah tak boleh pakai existing c.card copy".

Ok, then i told her.."ok la kak, kalau cmtu saya pegi amik la payslip dia dlm kereta (thinking that i have it in the car..and its already 4.05pm, bank tutup kul 4.30pm)..so i rush back to my car that i park kinda further away..search all over the place in my working bag..takde!..then i call our office clerk to check whether i left  on my office desk..she said "yes kak, ade kat sini"...huwaaaaaaa..saya sudaa p opiss tadi amik document..fighting with the jam back and forth to come here, and now i have to go back again to the office to pick up the salary slip!.

Then i drove back to the office, laju mana la aku leh bawak pun..kalau dah jam kat k.l especially in the heart of kl, jalan tun razak!!..reach the office, call our clerk to help pass it to me downstairs..ruuusshhhh back to ambank..parking tepi jalan, lucky my housemate followed me..waited in the car for me. Sampai2..bank dah tutup! and i waived to abang guard and showed the payslip..(macam la dia paham pun kan) the he said to me through the hole of the glass door "bank dah tutup la dik", then i said "saya nak pass payslip ni je bang..kat akak tu..(pointing towards her, lucky she's still there)". Abang guard pun terus pegi panggil akak tu and pointing towards me at the door..and i waived to her (mcm aku dh tetinggal plane je)". Pastu abang guard bagi masuk....huissssshhhh...lega dapat gak aku pass kat kakak tu payslip client. Harap2 approved la application dia.

Suma ni terjadi disebabkan kebangangan minah front desk kat ambank sentul tu la!..kalau tak tau..boleh tak tanya and jangan nak belagak pandai..pastu tengok org sebelah mata. Sebab ko punya tunjuk pandai you cost me double trouble!! offf my time! resourcess and energy!..oleh itu, sape2 nak apply c.card or anything to do with banking sila la pegi HQ..sbb front desk branch mmg sangat sengal!!..

Phewww,...rasa macam aku tgh belari2 bwk keta p ambank skrg ni sambil menaip dengan lajunyaa...

what's for dinner?

                                                              Had french toast for brunch...
 
                                        And i'm craving for a jaw dropping beef burger frrooommm....


                                                                        ...........


                                                CARL'S  Jr...!!!!! nyaaammm nyaaaammmmmm

                                                         

                                              Selamat menjamu selera!!!...muahhhsss

Lazyyy sunday....

I'm in the office..just finish settling all the docs submission for tomorrow..phewwwww legaaaa...
tapi sedih coz our bestselling product AmCash has been pulled of the rack. Haisshhh elok2 ade product best g pull off la plak..and the best part is..notice of the pullout is given less than 24 hrs!! ya ammmpunnnn...
rasa dah patang tulang belakang ni ha on the road for so many hours meeting clients to sign up on the last minute.
Hopefully they're gonna bring a good product replacement soon.

Perut beta sudaaa laparrr, jadi beta perlu mengisi nya dengan kadar segera..adiosss

Welcoming Monday with a super sunshine smile :)

Byee..

weehuu....i'm smiling from ear to ear!!

                                                                           Why???
       
                                          Because i just bought myself TWO (2) 
                                                   new DRESS!!!

                                  

                   Sukanya hati saya ni..ade taman2 penuh dgn dress :)

To all girls, ladies & women out there...

Reviewing what has been on the newspaper daily, we will never fail to see women becoming a victim in situations like being whacked by the husband mercilessly..to the point of many numbers of broken bones are reported, lying helplessly on the hospital bed..with eyes so brutally bruised black in color. 


Another scenario was, a university student who falls in love with a 40 yrs old man with 2 wives, knowing the situation she was in..despite it all sacrificing all her feelings, money, dignity..just to have this man's love.


Did we notice what is the meaning of  "LOVE" ?? for obvious reasons i know love should make a person happy..never less, love should empower a person to be the best person they could never imagine they could be..when we fail to know the meaning of love...we go through all the hardship & emotional torture to only break us apart one day..whether we'll end up in the hospital bed, or being used by a married man..does all this happening make sense in the meaning of  LOVE?


Women has been given something special from GOD to be a  very loving person, so they can shower their love to their own family, to people around them more than men. That is why sometimes women go ALL OUT in their pursue of LOVE when they found a MEN, regardless of the status whether he's poor or rich..educated or uneducated..handsome or beasty look alike. In this pursue, we often forget that we have not LOVE ourself enough to just be merely accepting the men that we stumble into.


This is my love reminder to all the girls, ladies and women out there including me...Please, please..learn & equip yourself on How can u love yourself first? Set your standard right..that's the key that can take you far away from all the discrimination of the men's world.

Today's Agenda...

I recently has a conflict with myself..in doing something truly important to me, deep down i find hesitation in doing it, after lots of reading & "googling". I find something interesting to do in overcoming this problem of mine. Which is:


Asking Yourself Questions...


even though this sounds lil bit kiddish to me but i believe it'll work..i started asking myself questions like below:


1. Why do i need to do this?
2. Why am i afraid / hesitate everytime i want to do this?
3. How do i make myself brave in doing this?
4. What are the consequences i shall face in the future if i
     didn't do this now?
5. What will the impact be towards me & towards all the  
     people i love (e.g: my parents, my siblings, my dear 
     friends, my boyfriend) all around me?
6. What can i do to make this a MUST and An Enjoyable thing
     that i look forward to do it from now onwards?


i have all the answers for all these questions towards the thing that i hesitated to do all this while, and tonight i'm going to link it with my deepest emotion and replay it in my mind and make it exactly the reality like i want it to be tomorrow!!...


can't wait for the outcome "BOOOMMMMM"


p/s: keep asking urself the right question, u ask and u shall receive..remember "RIGHT" questions ;)

life's expectation, what yours?

usually if aku dh dok menaip pagi2 buta ni tak lain tak bukan mmg sbb malam tadi takleh tido langsung..too many things racing around in my mind, skit lagi dh nak sama cam F1..huhu.

I have this thought..and i know i'm a person with high expectation in life, be it to myself or people around me. Though i tend to, u know let it go at times, let it flow with what's life got to offer...deep inside i can feel the feeling of denial increasingly... towards my so call "let it flow" attitudes.

At times, i feel that i'm very bad in making decisions...decisions involving my own life, for God's sake!. I tend to think about how other people around me would feel first, i can't stand it if i felt that i've ruined someone's feeling and over the years i've develop a very high intensity of living in denial. In denial of my own true feeling, sucking up to the idea of what if this is not what i expect it to be? making a verrry wrong decision..(even when i'm only thinking of doing it, belum buat lagi tuh!)..i'll shrink back in my shell for the zillion-th time ever.

Even if what i'm currently attached to doesn't meet my expectation, and i can get what i expect out there..i still feel its better for me to be where i am now..rather than pursuing or chasing for my expectations. What the HELL is wrong with me? why can't i just stand up for once and stop living in denial no more??? how hard is that?? sighh...my thoughts and my feelings seems to have "perang saudara" here.

I always will think of the worst case scenario if i were to chase or get my expectation, why does my thought works dat way? i really can't figure it out...but one thing that i do know is, i can't keep living in denial. I just have live up my expectation regardless of what the consequences are..after all everything has its pro's & con's kan?

besambung when i'm not living in denial lagi..huhu

A Matured Soul

selamat menyambut ramadhan kepada semua umat islam, i'm writing this right after sahur sharp at 6.10am, i read this book last night when i'm tossing & turning on my bed trying to force my sleepy eyes to sleep and my brain to synchronize with it.

I just felt the need to share this lil' info that i feel could be put to good use, for me as well as the readers out there;

Criteria found in a person who has already reach a matured soul phase:

1. They are generally very friendly and have a pleasant smile.

2. They liked other people and feels easy to help others.

3. They're always keeping themselves abreast with the upcoming news (*important ones)

4. They often dressed up very casually (not overdo), they didn't try to impress others

around them with the wealth they possess.

5. They are not the type of person whom like to whine.

6. They could understand people who are younger or older than them, and have the

ability to mix around with both groups of people.

7. Among them, some loves sports and will be doing it till they're at the golden age with

a happy heart.

8. For them, the purpose in involving in something is not to score the highest point,

only to stimulate the motivation in themselves

i only posses minimum 2 of these criteria...and i have found people around me with all these criteria, its really comfortable being around them...how about you?

p/s: i'm on my way of harnessing a mature soul..;)

Amy (bukan nama sebenar)

This story is about a friend that i met few years ago, Before going further down my storyline i would like to state that i'm not a judgmental person towards anyone..since i believe in giving second chance to others as well as myself, to me there's no one perfect out there.

We're meant to have friends, our family & our loved ones out there to make us complete in one way or another. However through the years i've known this friend of mine, let's name my friend "amy" (bukan nama sebenar ye) shall we? :). I felt that amy tend to keep away lots of things from me, it does bother me when we befriended after quite some time. However i always brush away my negative thoughts about amy, perhaps amy has reasons to not share the things that i felt i ought to know as a friend.

There's one time when i asked amy about it, amy turns quite & sour perhaps to let me drop the subject. Well after befriending amy for few years down the road i had to confront amy about this situation and amy claims to proof it in black & white.

One day as promised amy came by to bring the proof of my disbelieve, after dinner & drinks..i was too tired to raise the subject and amy left with the so called "proof". When i wake up the next morning..i text amy " i thought u said u wanted to leave the proof behind" but amy din replied to my text. After a while i decided to call amy, and amy told me "sorry, i carry it off with me yesterday..can i scan n email it to you?". I replied " i thought we have agreed on the hard copy?", the air is heated with arguments between amy's word and my heated chest. After which amy claims the line is not good, that amy can't hear me clearly..amy told me will call later.

To my surprise (actually i'm not really surprised)...amy didn't even bother to call nor sms. Amy only called the next evening about 45 mins past 7. Amy tried to speak as if nothing had happened, and sensing my unresponsive tone..amy said "i'l scan it and email you tonight, ok?" since i didn't agree on it on our arguments the day before.

At this point of the conversation i realized that i have no more strength nor passion to continue my friendship with amy, i guess we have reached a so called T-junction that i decide to drop amy where amy belongs.

Dear amy, though i feel like i wanna whack you off your arse..i decide to let it pass me, i believe as best-est friend of mine said " karma pandai la carik amy tu nanti"

p/s: i'm not writing this in a sad mode, in fact a very calm one..since amy actually never really

belong to my journey ;)

Yeaaa...baju baru for my blog!..*wink*

aaahhh..its been long since i wrote here, so rasa cam nak tukar baju dia sikit baru la nampak lively skit..hehe, what do u guys think? cantik tak? hehe..its been 4 months since the "tragedy" happen to my life, my emotion is already at the stable condition though it could spike up when i saw someone on fb related to the "tragedy", somehow i decide to let it pass me.

i've been having trouble to sleep lately, gets worst after i came back from spain for our TTW trip on july 3rd. I gotta admit i have lots on my mind..with all the achievements i badddly want to craft on this journey. Which will determine where i will stand for the next years to come.

My ex-boss once asked me "faizah, have u ever slept and wake up in the middle of the nights? and u can't get back to sleep?"

i replied " no, never..i sleep soundly every night :)"

he then smiled and replied "hmm..u're very lucky girl :)"

back then i was thinking " ape la mamat ni tanya soalan camtu, time tido..tido je laa"

now..at this stage of my life i know what he meant, with all the expectations u want to have in life, and all the "cabaran dan onak duri" that gets along the way..with the "ouchhh", "arggghh" & whatever sound we make.

At times we tend to be weaker than we should be, only to realized that we have an extraordinary strength lies in within us..that's just waiting to spark of..thus i believe whatever life throws at me, i should never ever question my believe to earn all the SUCCESS i want to have in this journey!!.

I believe with all my heart & soul that i will make my journey a GREAT one!!

one fine friday..

This has happened two weeks ago, came rather unwarned..as of today for as long, only to know where i stand in the eyes of those people i love around me. Loving them rather unconditionally, being the one that would do anything just for their sake..perhaps the only way that i could learn about life is in such a way.

I've vow not to let anything be on my way to achieve whatever i've put my mind into..

And if the only way for those people i love to believe in me is by proving to them i'l be on top with or without their believe..i will show them one fine friday.

Even if i were to fall on my face..i'll instill the believe in their very heart, that it'll whisper in their ear..that's my vow & a challenge that i must take.

Tiny hollow feelings...

Started to felt this feeling recently, the harder i tried to ignore..the stronger "that" feelings struck me. I just wanted to have a normal life, learning to love others that loved me, loving them in the most possible way i could..at times i felt "selfish" for trying to love others that has loved me so much yet i still could afford having "that" feeling in me! What's wrong with me?

Which one do i follow, my hearts or my brain?

If, i do follow my hearts..will this tiny hollow feelings vanished altogether? will i feel contented?

And, if i follow my brains..could i keep denying this tiny hollow feelings? would it robbed my sanity one fine day? or i'm just gonna be fine swallowing it to my stomach & let the gastric juice down it away?

Do others feel this way too? how do they overcome it?

come clean, tell the truth? or...be a coward like i am now? (sacrificing these hollow feelings to my very gastric juice).

I hope time & my prayer will keep me insane should i follow my brains one fine day.

demam kura-kura...

last week thursday, after i came back from meeting a friend over for tea. I started sensing dryness on my throat, but i thought "hmm..tak cukup air kut, minum air lebih sikit ok la ni". Afterwhich i happily went to for a jog that same evening, and felt great!

After maghrib prayer, i sat to browse through tv channel...then my body felt a lil' hotter than usual. Then i thought "nape la badan aku rasa panas ni?..takpe makan panadol 2 biji ok la kut"..then i took 2 panadol. Bila nak tido tu..makin panas, i ended up tossing and turning in my bed till morning, then i obviuosly do not have the energy to wake up..with my throat dryness worsening.

However, towards late morning...my feverish feeling seems like recovered fully. So i figure.."isk isk demam ni main2 plak, makan panadol lagi pastu mesti ok dah ni, takyah la g clinic"

Malam tu demam ni main cak2 plak ngan aku, hampeh tul..and its worst! so i decided to visit a doctor..end up getting an mc for 2 days :)

p/s:w'pun seronot dpt mc 2 hari, tapi my feet tak berapa nak happy sgt duk umah for 3 days!..uwaaa..alhamdullilah dah sihat skrg.

Parisss...here i come!!!

ish ish ish...macam batak la plak aku ni (ampunkan saya ye? almaklumlah..1st time nak g paris, hehe), like i said earlier its not in the plan..but anyway, i've made up my mind not for europe trip, but just meeting them down at paris and london for 6 days n back to kl.

Nak join ke kong..ehehehe, bwk azila skali! :)

kena keja keras lepas ni beb!!

Europe trip...:(

Owh..this is not in my plan at all for this year, tapi nak dijadikan cerita..i met with my old-school friend gang masa open house raya dia last2 week. I know that they're planning for europe trip. She, her husband, and supposedly another two friends.

Everything went well, before the travel agency they are hoping for giving a slow feedback and one of the friends now..back off with his own plans. So they're left with three...and my friends started asking whether i wanna join them for the trip.

Since i don't have that in mind at all. I just tell her that "aku takde budget la beb"...but after that things change, they're all persuading me to go..siap nak bagi loan lagi (sorry to say, tapi bab2 loan dgn orang ni, mmg aku jenis payah sikit) unless la pama nyer loan kan? nyek nyek..

So i'm in the midst of should i? or shouldn't i?

huhuhuhuhuhu....

How should u treat them?

Imagine a situation where you wanted so badly to have a serious conversation with someone (can be anyone..mom, dad, friends, etc).

The very conversation means a lot to you..(whatever topic it might be)..

However after several attempts, u've been put down with statements which might sounds like :

" Its giving me a headache la, maybe we can discuss it later " and

"Why not you tell me that earlier? it's just not a good topic to have over the phone, can we talk about it later?"

and statements-statements yang sewaktu dengannya...

And to make the matter slightly bitter..its seems to be forgotten intentionally !! and they expect you to carry on having days with them, and treating them like nothing happens..

1. Do you feel brushed aside?

2. Picked up not only to make you feel worst over time, but to make them feel happy at all
cost?

If you have been in the situation above, or can feel how to be in the situation above,
How would you treat them?

Ignore them? Still treat them nicely? or...?

Selamat hari raya aidilfitri...

As i've not been blogging for quite sometime now, just wish to dedicate "Selamat hari raya aidilfitri" to all the muslims and "maaf zahir batin" to all my dear friends..mana la tau kan ade terkasar bahasa ke :)...

My whole family when down to taiping for raya holiday..since we don't really have a kampung anymore. Taiping town jammed up all the way down to kamunting..where we're checking in..All in all glad that i could again celebrate raya in the company of beloved family.

Till then..

Afraid ??

Is sacrificing ur true feelings because you don't have the heart to break one's feeling is LOVE?
if that's the case, following ur true hearts feelings, would not be called LOVE?
since some sayings goes like "love is all about sacrifice", to which extend does the sacrifice applies?

Is feeling afraid of losing someone to be there for you is LOVE?
then, NOT afraid of losing them, would not be called LOVE?

Is it more worthwhile to love someone whom LOVE's u more, than someone who loves u equally as u do love them?

I believe LOVE is a feeling, that u can feel inside u towards someone...no matter how hard denying the very fact of the feeling that u felt inside..perhaps afraid what will be unfolded later in life is why u try hard denying it, perhaps afraid that ur very decision will bring misery rather than joy u sought after.

The very thing i'm sure now is, making decision is what i'm afraid of..though quite certain of
the feelings.

Streamyx dan kekurangannya...

Ampunkan la streamyx dan seluruh keluarga yang bernaung dibawahnya, aku mmg malas sebenarnya nak deal dgn streamyx bcuz of past experience with TM's technical contractor that comes with the very least so called "manners". However since the "toyol under the bed?" issue has come up, its time for my family to fix an alarm system for our house. To fix the alarm system, it requires a fix-home line. So without much choice in hand..i opt again for TM home line..though i've had bad experience dealing with their employees.

As expected, 3 days down the line the same person came over to the house to fix the home line..but he's lucky i'm not at home and only my maid is. Sempat lagi mamat lembut tu nak sound maid aku "Hey rumah ni sekejap nak pakai line of sekejap taknak.." kepala hotak mamat tu senget ke ape? aku ni customer dia..selamba bapak dia je nak sound maid aku camtu...and i'm very sure mamat ni have cause a lot of residentials around my home the same problems too, since i've had the similar feedback from my neighbour.

Ok la tu aku dh tak kisah la, since i'm using the home line now & streamyx ade combo package so..sekali bayar je la. So i'm planning on terminating my maxis broadband. Mamat yang deal ngan aku kat TMpoint tu ckp "lepas diorang fix home line they'll come n install the streamyx". Till today...lepas dah 5 hari line rumah fix..no call from streamyx to update me on anything!!

To make matter worst..aku pun call la TM customer service. Mamat tu pulak kasi tau aku
"oh miss, there's problem with copper cable around ur housing area, someone stole it thus we're having a problem right now", soalannya:

1. Is that my problem? pegi la fix the bloody copper or watsoever it is (aku ni tukang bayar
and pakai je?)

2. Can't they the least ring up their customer and tell them about the problems? (Nak tunggu
customer call n ask ke? pastu ntah ape2 jawapan la dia bagi)

Pastu mamat customer service tu boleh suruh aku pegi balik TMpoint and ask what's the problem.."i can only assist you from the phone miss, the rest u have to go to TMpoint"
ape benda yang dia assistnya ni? STREAMYXXX mmg nak kena laser la kalau aku turun TMpoint esok...