For the past few months i've been involved with an entrepreneurship program that's designed by one of the well known research insitute (RI's) and is funded by a government venture capital body...however although my patience limit has been tested till its ceiling level..my policy will always be..no names mention (fair enough right?)
To make it short, i've been selected to be among the top 10 candidates, that will have my own company..which will be fully funded with a handsome amount of grant money (or as i prefer to say its..malaysian taxpayers money). Having very less experience dealing in any way with government agencies..it seriously took a lot of courage for me to deal with:
1. Their very2 slow place in conducting and executing anything.
2. No specific datelines in delivering any task at hand..(it could be postponed to any date as they
like).
3. Taking no responsibilities in any action that they took.
4. Having the backwards mentality (generally) that anyone else below them do not have any
right to express even their opinion, for the very sake of his/her best interest.
Okay..so basically, after being selected to own my company, beforehand i've been through the process of delivering concept paper, right through various presentations..and also a complete set of validated business plan.
Only to discover..after being chosen, i'm being pushed to do something that has no connection prior to my business plan. They expect me to come up with new business plan of something that they want to do now..only after i've been selected, with a prior notice to me and everyone else that we all will proceed with exactly the same business plan that we have proposed. ( sukahati mak bapak dia la kan?..can't they make up their mind? shd i at this age teach someone whom shd be wiser at the supposed age they are at now?)
After giving it a thought...i feel, takpe la..i'll just come up with new business plan that they want me to do..dat is taking up the product that they want to commercialized..and make it work..
After a few hours of discussion, as if i have not had enough surprises that i've to start again from scratch..to do what they want me to do..that not only will take up my precious time and energy, but will give my healthy mental stage a shock...that could burst at any point of time!!!!
A phone call from a person that is supposed to provide the product resulted in another surprise...that i couldn't handle with a right state of mind..."I'm sorry the product is not available anymore..i've contract it out to a marketing company"...Have u ever felt when someone very dear to you, dissapoint you in a very absurd way? it feels like a punch sharply straight to my heart..and when it sank..i felt numb...thats exactly how i felt that bright friday afternoon...(In a professional organization..the appointing committee was not in communications with the other professionals..that has all the right to give his/her product to be commercialized? they call this a national project? they are even proud to say that none of us actually qualified to be in this program? they even say dat this program actually shd have end here if not because they believe in second chance? For God Sake..it has already ended by all means.)
To make matters worst, when this matter are brought for their attention with a middle person that are the same or higher rung in the professional ladder...they have already had a decision in mind to just push me away to work under the rest of the top 10 so call entrepreneur...(which sounded exactly like "she shouldn't know about this..she has no say", okay...they should know this very fact:-
1. If i would want to be a worker..i wouldn't go through a program that's designed to carved
an enterpreneur..would i?
2. And as the owner of my future company, I will have all the say that i want to have
3. I will not let anyone else determine the direction of my company..even when it has not
yet registered!!! daa..
4. If they expect an entreprenuer wif a brain of a follower..and not in any way a leader..they're obviously in the wrong boat.
As long as we see others that might have the edge to make things work, only to feel inferior about it..then don't even dream of moulding an entrepreneur..since u've failed obviouly before you even utter a word. Since dat believe is already carved until its tatooed in their vey brain!!!
For God's Sake..do have a fresh and open mentality..that is as little thing as what i'm asking for!!
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